iN a dArK rOoM witH bRiGht MoNiTeR

recently, planned to adjust my timing method to wat normal person has - slp n wake at the usual time - well.. its really hard for me to achive this mission.. my night life stays but i do wake myself in the morning.. this few day, i works hard on my designing stuff.. felt glad for im not such useless person.. thought of life will get better too.. but this feeling doesnt last long.. scold by my dad few hour ago.. wat he scold from his mouth wasnt tat important.. i knew tat he was quite dissapointed on me.. hate this kind of feeling.. will try to b tough whenever met up with trouble.. but everytime facing my dad ill bcome so weak.. once, my heart broke again.. will need plenty of time to cure.. unlucky thing always happen on me.. wonder should i pretend or stay cool all the time to avoid myself get hurt.. sigh~